There are a lot of feelings built up inside me that I am working on. Anger, rage, resentment, grief, rejection, envy and sadness. The source of these feelings is my parents addiction, which I grew up basing my life around. I do all the healthy recommended strategies for dealing with these feelings. Up until a […]
The pain and anguish of healing childhood trauma; temporary. This too shall pass. The nightmares, the anxiety, the feeling unsafe, temporary. This too shall pass. The resentment, anger, envy and feelings of betrayal; all temporary. This too shall pass.
I don’t want to be bitter. I don’t want to be resentful. I don’t want to be angry. Ever since I began my healing process from trauma, I have felt all of these feelings I don’t want to feel. Some say it is grief, for a safe childhood that I never had. I wonder how […]
Harmony is one of my goals. To live in harmony, means to live consistently and in peace. So I’m embarking on a journey to harmonize my life. At the moment, I have days with no PTSD symptoms and other days with severe flashbacks, irritability, self doubt and tears. My goal is for consistency. I’m aware […]
Some people experience things that change them radically. Miracle stories, where they see a hypnotist and they are forever changed. Others report they have a huge epiphany and never experience anxiety again. I know these stories are few and far between and there are many explanations for miracles. I wish I could experience some major […]
Climbing upwards, trying to achieve healing. Making goals, trying to make progress. Two steps forward and one backwards. As I continue climbing, some days feel like I’m about to fall, some days feel like I’m making great lengths of progress. The results aren’t always tangible, but still I continue to climb. Until I can look […]
I’m cranky. I don’t want to be. I wish I could let it go. Is this trauma? Making me permanently irritable, cranky, mad, angry? It’s not as though I like it. It’s not as though I enjoy feeling like this. The truth is when I’m going about my day; memories from the past pop into […]