I’m working on self-acceptance at the moment. The need to constantly change myself and not accept where I’m at in the process of self-improvement is holding me back. In order to heal from my trauma I have to be okay with where I am right now…. I am jealous sometimes, and that is okay. I […]
Wake up Go to work Work Get home Feel exhausted and wonder how I will summon the energy to cook dinner. Go to bed early because I’m exhausted. Get 11 hours sleep. Wake up, still exhausted. Repeat for several days. Has the dreaded burnout returned?
I finally feel like I’ve had a bit of a breakthrough. After the last few weeks of feeling low, in energy, in mood and in general well-being, I woke up this morning feeling different, with a crescendo of energy and zest for life. The motivation I’ve been lacking lately, had finally evaporated off (a little […]
When I fist began this journey of healing from my trauma, I was 24 years old. I wound up in a therapist’s office explaining how both of my parents were alcoholics, I was a codependent to them, I had trauma from my childhood and I expected to be in therapy for three months while I […]
I feel as though I’m in a trance. Muddling through each day, smiling at all the right times, wearing the right thing at the right time, saying the right things at the right times, looking “fine” on the outside. Inside, feeling lost and confused, sad and lethargic, apathetic and alone. Appetite has gone, sex drive […]
Right now, the sun is glaring through the window at me. It’s a nice day, but I can’t bring myself to leave the house, let alone get off the sofa. This comes as a huge disappointment as both of my physical and emotional well-being have been a lot better lately. I’ve been up and about […]
Climbing upwards, trying to achieve healing. Making goals, trying to make progress. Two steps forward and one backwards. As I continue climbing, some days feel like I’m about to fall, some days feel like I’m making great lengths of progress. The results aren’t always tangible, but still I continue to climb. Until I can look […]