Apology Letters: To All the Mother Figures

To all the mother figures, I’m sorry. I really need to apologise to you all. I yearned for a mother that was going to nurture me. My mother is an alcoholic and a narcissist. This left a gaping hole in my life as a child, teenager and young adult as I longed for someone to […]

Apology Letters: To My Friend From a Dark Time

To my friend, We’re not really close anymore, I guess we’ve drifted apart. But there was a time about 8 years ago, where we were really close. I was mentally ill. You were my main support. I’ve been writing a series of “forgiveness letters”, forgiving others for the things they’ve done to me. When I […]

Letters of Forgiveness: To Myself

Dear me, Oh my goodness, you have fucked up so many times. But I’ve decided to forgive you. I know that no one is perfect. I know that you are learning. I know that you always do your best with the resources that you have at the time. I forgive you. I forgive you for […]

Letters of Forgiveness: To My Colleague 10 Years Ago

Dear Colleague, I worked with you ten years ago. I didn’t know you well, but something happened between us that has had an impact on me,  something that I need to release. I want you to know that I forgive you. I forgive you for noticing I was new to the alcohol game and a […]

Letters of Forgiveness: To the Man on the Train

To the man on the train, I catch the train all the time, day and night. I live in London and don’t drive so the train is completely necessary. A train filled with people, surely it isn’t risky. I thought it wasn’t, that was until I met you. I forgive you for strategically sitting next […]

Socialisation: On the Back Foot

At school, I was not very popular. I was a really weird kid, with terrible social skills. My Mother and Father are both alcoholics and spent the majority of my formative years drunk. During my degree at University, I took a class on child development. Something I read stood out to me;  children in their […]

Re-victimisation

Re-victimisation, unfortunately, has consistent evidence. Up to 75% of adults that  experienced abuse as a child, also reported experiencing abuse as an adult. When I first entered therapy, I felt like I “attracted” people who were abusive, I described a series of thorny experiences. A therapist explained to me the concept of re-victimization and that […]