A Rollercoaster: Job Hunting

I’m going through that dreaded process….job hunting. The last three weeks of this process have been a complete rollercoaster. Some well meaning person asked me how job hunting was going, I give an update “still nothing yet” and suddenly feel triggered into thinking I’m useless. “Why can’t I find a job? “What’s wrong with me? […]

Re-victimisation

Re-victimisation, unfortunately, has consistent evidence. Up to 75% of adults that  experienced abuse as a child, also reported experiencing abuse as an adult. When I first entered therapy, I felt like I “attracted” people who were abusive, I described a series of thorny experiences. A therapist explained to me the concept of re-victimization and that […]

A Letter To My Body

Dear Body, I’m really sorry there have been a number of occasions where I disobeyed what you were asking of me. I’m sorry it took me twenty-five years to learn to listen to you. Even though it wasn’t my doing; I’m sorry that your start in life wasn’t the best. My mother has admitted drinking […]

My Mother’s Favourite Word

My mother is always talking about sympathy, it’s her favourite word, she often says she “needs sympathy”. The problem is; I have exhausted myself giving her sympathy, empathy and support and it still does not quite meet her needs. At one point, she phoned me three times a day (when I was on my way […]

Breakthrough

I finally feel like I’ve had a bit of a breakthrough. After the last few weeks of feeling low, in energy, in mood and in general well-being, I woke up this morning feeling different, with a crescendo of energy and zest for life. The motivation I’ve been lacking lately, had finally evaporated off (a little […]