There are a lot of feelings built up inside me that I am working on. Anger, rage, resentment, grief, rejection, envy and sadness. The source of these feelings is my parents addiction, which I grew up basing my life around. I do all the healthy recommended strategies for dealing with these feelings. Up until a […]
In the last two years, since deciding to confront my codependency with my alcoholic parents and my trauma from growing up in an addiction centred home, I have changed a lot. Sadly, I still find myself focused on the things I wish I could overcome, the things I am failing at; instead of focusing upon […]
The pain and anguish of healing childhood trauma; temporary. This too shall pass. The nightmares, the anxiety, the feeling unsafe, temporary. This too shall pass. The resentment, anger, envy and feelings of betrayal; all temporary. This too shall pass.
I don’t want to be bitter. I don’t want to be resentful. I don’t want to be angry. Ever since I began my healing process from trauma, I have felt all of these feelings I don’t want to feel. Some say it is grief for a safe childhood that I never had. I wonder how […]
The most difficult thing about being the daughter of two addicts is the things I didn’t learn growing up. Unfortunately addicts spin a load of yarn all the time. They lie. About everything and anything that will cover their addiction up. This may sound strange, but growing up, I didn’t know the difference between the […]
Avid describes being enthusiastic about something. At the moment I am very avid about healing. I am battling PTSD. I experience extreme anger every day. Insomnia. Anxiety. Self-esteem issues. Sadness. Irritability. Grief. A very poor immune system. IBS. PMS. Hormone imbalance. Codependent problems. I have been struggling with PTSD since September 2015; after I admitted […]
Harmony is one of my goals. To live in harmony, means to live consistently and in peace. At the moment, I have days with no PTSD symptoms and days with severe flashbacks, irritability, self doubt and tears. My goal is for consistency. I’m aware that there are good days and bad days in everybody’s life, […]