I am confused, I sound confused and I am acting confused. I have been wishing for most of my 26 years, that I would be able to handle my parents addiction better. Two years ago, I had the courage to make some changes, I set some boundaries and decided to do some hard work on […]
I woke up this morning to a phone call from my Mother. These are never easy because she is an alcoholic. I limit my contact with her to one phone call per week on the weekend because of the emotional toll her addiction takes on me. She was drunk. She started asking about some minor […]
Having a family member with a serious addiction poses serious dilemmas as far as navigating a relationship goes. I’ve had to tailor my love for my mother to work for her and me so that there is as little pain as possible Being close to you hurts, so I will love you from a distant […]
Trace (def); find or discover by investigation. Two years ago at age 24, I realised my parents were alcoholics and I had spent my whole life being a codependent. I wanted to heal from this experience and break the cycle to find a more healthy, happy and functional way of living. This is what I […]
There are a lot of feelings built up inside me that I am working on. Anger, rage, resentment, grief, rejection, envy and sadness. The source of these feelings is my parents addiction, which I grew up basing my life around. I do all the healthy recommended strategies for dealing with these feelings. Up until a […]
In the last two years, since deciding to confront my codependency with my alcoholic parents and my trauma from growing up in an addiction centred home, I have changed a lot. Sadly, I still find myself focused on the things I wish I could overcome, the things I am failing at; instead of focusing upon […]
The pain and anguish of healing childhood trauma; temporary. This too shall pass. The nightmares, the anxiety, the feeling unsafe, temporary. This too shall pass. The resentment, anger, envy and feelings of betrayal; all temporary. This too shall pass.