In the last two years, since deciding to confront my codependency with my alcoholic parents and my trauma from growing up in an addiction centred home, I have changed a lot.
Sadly, I still find myself focused on the things I wish I could overcome, the things I am failing at; instead of focusing upon the things I have achieved.
There are many things I wish I could be. Unfortunately, despite an awful lot of positive transformation, Im still not who I desire to be yet.
There is much hard work I need to do on myself to ensure that I will break the cycle of dysfunction and show my future children a positive and healthy way of life.
This is my traits and skills wishlist:
-I wish I could radiate security; instead of feeling threatened and unsafe by others.
-I wish I could radiate mindfulness, rather than being anxious about the future, daydreaming to escape my reality or feeling resentful over the past.
-I wish I could radiate honesty and authenticity, as opposed to telling others what they want to hear so I don’t get rejected.
-I wish I could radiate peace, instead of resentment, anger and anxiety.
-I wish I could radiate groundedness, rather than being scatty , indecisive and dithery.