I don’t want to be bitter. I don’t want to be resentful. I don’t want to be angry.
Ever since I began my healing process from trauma, I have felt all of these feelings I don’t want to feel. Some say it is grief, for a safe childhood that I never had. I wonder how long grief takes? How long will memories pop into my mind on a daily basis? Will these memories always make me feel this angry and betrayed?
I know the bitterness and anger I’m feeling is not good for me, but not matter how hard I try to fight it, the strong feeling remains.
I sit with it, waiting for it to pass, telling myself healing takes time.