Working on my Interior

My parent’s are alcoholics and I am a codependent. I have spent a lot of time trying to control their addiction, trying to control others views of them, trying to control everything else around me, because I didn’t know any different and because I was terrified of relinquishing control. Controlling the external made my anxiety disappear.

Trying to control external circumstances for the last 25 years, although has helped my anxiety, has exhausted me. I need to make a change.

In 2017, I’m not controlling the external. If I give up controlling external circumstances,  the only option I have, is to control how I respond to them. I must work on my interior. The exterior is off limits.

I am going to face the music, I’ve got to look at my anxiety from a different angle. Looking inside myself and working on the interior will mean a lot of hard work; challenging core beliefs, learning coping strategies and getting out of my comfort zone. I’m totally up for it, because I’m breaking the cycle and it starts with me.

Daily prompts: interior

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7 thoughts on “Working on my Interior

  1. You are a very brave person. Facing your problems head on is not something many people can do. You should be proud of yourself!
    (o´ω`o)ノ ヾ(☆’∀’☆)
    ( ̄ω ̄)/

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