I’m getting married in 4 and a half months. I should be excited, mildly nervous and a little stressed.
Instead I’m extremely anxious.
I’m terrified of walking up the aisle and everyone looking at me.
I’m terrified of saying my vows.
I’m terrified of being the centre of attention.
I’m terrified of the speeches and what people might say.
I’m terrified of my first dance.
I wake up in the middle of the night anxious about my wedding and stay awake for hours thinking about it.
I want a big wedding, and sadly I want to feel okay about it. But I’m plagued by anxiety.
Anxiety is yet again, stealing my joy.